Coffee was a way to talk to all of you but i want to share my personal encounter with God,and my Testimony of Jesus being my Savior,my king,my love of Life.
I don’t know how to start but after reading the blog “Life
of faith” I got the guts to share my life publicly and felt I must share openly
and tell the world how I had fallen in love with my loving God.
Well, as a child and the teaching I got during childhood, and specially from my granny,I always used to constantly
keep talking to Jesus even though I wasn’t knowing him much, but as a friend I
shared things, I used to fight with him,laugh with him and shared my heart to him, Jesus
knew me completely but I wasn’t knowing him much.
Real change in life took place after the death of my father
in 2003,he had small tumour like dot in his head and it was not tumour,he has fallen unconscious when i was too small,may be in fourth std but after check up the reports came of dot in head and that there is no tumour and also he is normal and healthy after few days .Years passed and in 2003 he dies in Kerala was a shock for me,I was never before told that my dad was so serious and seriousness of his
illness was never discussed in front of me at home and also he was normal outside,i cannot think in my vast imagination that my father can die,suddenly my dad
goes to Kerala and after 3 to 4 months,my mom told me that we have
to go to Kerala,I was absolutely not in a mood to go Kerala but finally my mom convinced me and when I went to Kerala, my dad’s
dead body was in front of me ,it was real shocking,I didn’t cried the whole funeral, but my mind started asking too many question to God, and seeing my dad’s body first time,I started telling Jesus,you have raised Lazarus!raise my dad too !with little faith
how will my dad be raised. My God can raise dead I believe, but I was in 11th
std and the faith I had was too less to raise a dead!!!
Now I started telling my close friend Linet that I am the
unluckiest person on earth and she kept on telling that’s not the thing and she
was right too, there are many children who loose their parents, both mom and dad and become
Orphans, at least I have my mom with me.
My telling that I am the unluckiest was for some other
reason which I never shared with any, not even to Linet,I got the guts to share the real
thing to her, may be 4 years back,don’t
remember the exact time.I was not confident whether anyone will accept me once i share this made me keep quiet.
It was the diseases of my mother that made my life horrible
but also this was the time I got to know love of Christ for me.My mom is suffering from the diseases where her mind speaks and she can hear voices,and she replies to what
she listen and her behaviour towards me was exactly what she listen and what that
voices came to her mind,i got to know about this diseases in 2010 in Jubilee, a program i went,when few aunties
saw my mom behaving abnormally and shouting loudly so they came and asked me personally and they explained me that this is a diseases,I
told one sister recently and she also told and explained about this diseases in detail that
there are people who under extremes mental pressure lose control on their mind and their mind start
producing liquid which make them hear voices,voice can be anything and everything and they
become very violent if we don’t behave according to them.
I as a child was not able to understand what my mom went through when
she lost her husband and at the time of my Father’s death my sister was at her peak
age to get married, all tension came on my mom and emotionally she didn’t
get any support from anywhere, and this was the time when she lost her mind.
Now in the year 2005 my sister got married, she also has experienced my mom’s abnormal behaviour,but me and my sister somehow manged together but after my sister got married it was me and
my mom alone which was time I experienced love of God and his saving graces.
I had all ill feeling,unforgiveness and always felt
my mom is mad and why I am kept under her like prison God,!Every new morning some question
would come up from my mom's mind and she keeps accusing me for faults I never did,one fine morning she said" Anu
tell me who is Vishal! I know Anu,I can hear your heart voice that you have an affair with Vishal! I don’t know Vishal named person in my life and no one in my friend with this
name too,Such shocks I used to get ,daily it was new shock to me..i was not allowed
to participate in programs much,my friend got permission from there parents but
for me it was most of time no,which gave
me lot of pain for losings many opportunity in such ways.But my loving dad(GOD) blessed
me to know her pain and Abba Father(my dadu)taught me forgiveness daily, taught
me to love her back and to understand her pain.
She gets violent if I won’t listen to her and if I go against
her absolute senseless decisions.She used to tell me not to talk to people to maintain distance because of what she heard about them in voices in mind due to which if she sees me talking to them,even if they come upfrontly she feels that they came and talk with me because i am talking to them from heart to heart and in such ways i used to get in trouble because she thinks all can listen and talk like her.
Many more different ways she used to behave with me but I don’t want
to list them all,I know one thing that all that she did was because of illness and all what she
did will be forgiven by God but what if me with all my senses don’t forgive her, which was taught by my ever loving God.
Well well,I don't have a great job,nor am a big personality,but yes in all my lonely life it was HE alone
who constantly loved me,and was there and gave me love and his peace and I
could smile all time with the peaceful heart ! I realised I have a person to be called my own who
love me very much and has suffered and given everything for me being a God.
I started enjoying my life in midst of all pain this is
what my God can do,HE healed me completely! I wanted to share this to all that how my God has given me such
a beautiful life,friends who love me truly and mom being not well loves me a lot!
My mom still not well but has improved a lot than before and behaves normal in front of others at least.Life is indeed beautiful after knowing my creator and how he manages me who is not perfect that too daily,i couldn’t write properly my witness to Christ but I really
want to glorify his name fully all my life for making me free for all worries with his love.
O No! Coffee with me was too long Right? ha ha ha
Dinner time I think ,thank you all for having Coffee with me.If you carry a witness then do share it with me too.
Blessings !
